8th of Feb...

** no mood for entry **...

31st of Jan...

2 more weeks to Lunar New Year and I'm quite looking forward to this one! =)

Reason being I WILL BE THE ONE PREPARING THE STEAMBOAT.
XD

Nice... I always love having Steamboat on the Lunar New Year. As my Mum has no reason not to do Steamboat on this occasion! Wahahaha!
*slurp*

No Steamboat tastes better than the one at home!
=)

Steamboat aside, there is nothing pretty exciting that had happened this week...
Another boring week with shitty jobs awaiting for us everyday. Having C.O.S duty on this coming weekend is like a blessing to me. I'm running dry on money, and I really mean D R Y !
-___-

Can't wait for my pay to come! It will be even better if it comes with my Marksman Monetary Award! Then it will really be a FAT NEW YEAR!!!
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

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Smells funny...
I want to go hanging out with you!

24th of Jan...

Damn...
I'd run out of money again...
-__-

I seriously think I need to control my spending. I'm left with 5 more mths, I need to have some saving before I go ORD!

Oh yes, I had decided to get a DSLR, and most likely it will be the Nikon D3000!
Yep! I had made up my mind, I don't want to crack my brain on this issue again!!!
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I'm glad that you had told me what you want...
Keep your heads high okay? You will find a solution to it!
=)

17th of Jan...

I had a bad week...
Yet it comes with a good weekend...

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Things will be better...
Trust me...

10th of Jan...

10 days in to the new year already, and I'm already seeing red in my cash flow...
Taking that I'm earning $600 a month, I can only earn $3600 till the day I get kicked out from my National Service... THIS IS BAD!!!
-__-

Nevertheless, other stuffs are still looking good right now like my physical training. I'm still doing great, and I want to do MORE of it as when I get out from my National Service, I won't be able to train as much as I'm right now. Standard Obstacle Course is still a killer for me, and I want to get it done and over with by March!

1st of Feb will be the day that the 3 universities open its door for applications...
I still don't think I will stand a chance, but I will stilll give it a try!
I want to study History very much...
=((

I had sudden urge of getting a DSLR right now instead of a Prosumer camera, after playing with HL's camera last night! DANG!

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Hope this new semester be kind to you!
I think it will!
=)

8th of Jan, 2010

Sweet...
50/50!

=)

31st of Dec, JUST FOR YOU!

I don't deny but we did had a good 2009. You are always on the phone on the Wednesday night listening to my whines and complains, and you will always say the same thing; "stop complaining lah..." You were there to picked up my phone when I called from overseas and you will just said "super good life loh!" Oh yes, "fatty pork" just always come out from your mouth when you were chatting with me~ =)

It seems like we are meeting up less as we went down the year. I miss the days that we went for dinner (I mean 2 of us only) and talk craps till late in the evening. I miss the days that I waited for you in your campus just to go home together, and I miss sending you home!

I know I can't ask for more (I know I'm not in the position to), but can we have that more often in 2010?

'cause I want to spend more time with you, and this is my New Year wish...
XD

On the phone just now (I wrote this on 31st morning), you made me realised that I really put not much time on you suddenly. I always has things on on my side of life, and it seems like I can't go to YOUR side of life. I think this is why the gap between you and me has gotten bigger...
I'm selfish, I'm so sorry...

Still, I can't THANK YOU more for being in my life in 2009. Motivation has come from you, comfort has come from you, and being able to move on, too, comes from YOU!

Things has always been changing, but the presence of you has not wane a bit. You still have a role to play in me, so can I say please stay in your role bit while more in 2010? I still of plenty of things for you! =)

Thank you again.
Have a good 2010.
May many good stuffs come to you!

I♥u

31st of Dec...

Yes, we have come to the last day of the year again. As usual, I will often post an entry on the last day of every year. This is the third time already and I must say maintaining this blog of mine is often tedious and time consuming (especially when I'm in army right now). I have not change my blog skin for more than a year already! Pardon me for the "same shit, different day" feeling that my skin have been giving you guys.

Lets' start with my National Service as this is what I had been doing every day for the past twelve months. From Trades Course to Germany, Out-field Training to Australia, doing these shits as a tankie always made me realised that I had been accomplishing stuffs that deemed impossible to me! From driving a 60 tonne vehicle 3 days and 2 night straight to not showering for 5 days, these "impossibles" always looked IMPOSSIBLE (my vocabulary has its limits FYI). Yet I think I manage to pull them off well, if not I won't be here any more!
=)

Another 6 months more, and I will be out from my National Service. A lot of things had been crossing my mind more often these days. Like "what I'm going to do after my NS?" "How am I going to sustain my cash expenditure?" Army had took them away for good, now they are going returned them to us soon, including the life of a civilian. The feeling of going back to become one is no different from the first day that I was being enlisted; both nervous and forward-looking. Please, just wish me luck when I'm out in back in the world that had gone for 2 good years. Yes, being Army is nasty, but I won't deny some of these moments were the best in my life, and the best that I could be...

Having completed one good year in the calender, many more things seems more prominent as well as equally blur and messy. The reality looks really really clear right now; the good, the bad, the super ugly and at times, the beautiful. Well the rate of my cash flow is REALLY messy right now! I guess I should regulate my spending too. As I grew older, it seems like my expenditure also increases!. Other stuffs like "Decisions", "Mentality", "Priority", "Financial Capability", "Friendship" and "Relationship" looks blur to me too. I so hope that the good winds and rainfall in the 2010 will clear them up, or else as time goes by, I think it will just disappear out of my sight...
=(

2009 was also a bad year for my body. From H1N1 to Chikugunya to Lupus (this has to be confirm again by another blood test that was being scheduled in the afternoon). My left ankle is in pain when ever I ran more than 3 kilometers. This is a bad news. I don't want to lose my ability to run long distances. Doing it always made me feel that I'm going to die the very next step I take, which in turn, makes me feel that I'm really alive; running and breathing. Oh yes, I really do want to slim down in 2010.

Before 2009 comes to an end and being stash in the back of my memory, I realised I did not accomplished anything great, I can't be someone extraordinary, I can't do anything good to impress, I did not do much to improve myself, and I'm still the same old guy as I am. I guess I'm just someone who just knows how to talk and make myself look good, but not braining myself to a higher level via accomplishments and improvements. Maybe I should change...

Again, I guess it was just all talks and words...
This entry was super emotional for me as I wrote along...
I don't know why...